Love Stuck

Enlightenment at 4:52pm

I think the Grandpa letter is weird.

I went to a great party with so many hot, good looking men. WOW!!!!!

I finally met the infamous Lino - I told him he was infamous. He is my close friend Jenn's older brother's best friend. Lino was very cute...

I also met a man in the parkade this morning. We saw each other as we drove looking for parking. then we parked, we chatted briefly, then I left for the forum. In the evening when I got back to my car, he had left a note under my windshield wiper blade with "Call Me, Derek..." and his number.

Plus, Nick the DJ from New Years emailed me this a couple of days ago:

" Hey there

I promised myself that i would stop collecting people's email and
phone #s and not doing anything with them.Oh it's Nick from the new
years partay.I hope you had a good time,your friend Nick reminds me of
a friend of mine.Anyhoo i'm playing at Club 23 west cordova this sat.I
think i'm starting the nite off so i'm on 11:00 -12:45am.i would love
to see you there and if not just give me a quick hello.people who
love to dance should stay in touch.gotta go talk to you soon.
Nmd "

I judged this email as being non-direct and weak. I did not respond and tonight is Saturday. I thought Nick was great.... but, this email does not grab me. If anyone reads my blogs, please comment and give me advice. I am totally frozen on this one.

There is also Ryan who is in the Forum this weekend. He is a very cute 33 year old.... who dresses and looks like he is 24. He is great. He likes me, he seeks me out on breaks, he looks at me a lot. He is very nice. There are two reasons I am dodgy of him. He is the forum to help heal his relationship from his ex-girlfriend of 4 years whom he broke up with 5 months ago. And, he is not quite a man yet. He is still deciding what he wants to do with his life. He has been a forest fire fighter for 11 years. He takes every winter to snowboard. This is sexy and great for someone in their early to mid-twenties... but, this is not a quality I seek in a life partner.

So many men.... so many options. The competition is tough. It is like I am on a dating show, and I have to constantly eliminate in order open the door for more. I am open to men, but I also want to be patient with the process of finding the right one without being judgemental. And I feel totally judgemental about some of these guys.

Maybe enlightenment will strike me at 4:52pm tomorrow and this will all be very clear.

live with intention. walk to the edge. listen hard. choose with no regret. laugh. do what you love.

posted by Lady Leisure @ 7:22 PM